Those moments where you struggled with being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, just ...enough.
If I can be honest, I struggle with those moments more than I care to admit.
In fact, I'm having one of those moments as I sit here typing.
I started this blog nearly three months ago excited about the possibility of moving to the next level with my dreams and aspirations of helping others and being a force for good.
And then, it happened.
I missed my goal.
Things didn't go exactly as I'd planned.
And then, I started with the self-doubt.
Why did I ever think I could do this?
Why didn't I plan better?
Why didn't I say XYZ?
Why didn't I do ABC?
Why, why, why?!
Honestly, I let all of that self-doubt cloud the facts that were staring me in my face.
1. Everyone had a GREAT time!
2. We were able to help quite a few women in need.
3. We were able to raise awareness about an AWESOME organization doing absolutely phenomenal work.
You'd think that would be enough, right?
But it wasn't.
I let myself sulk for another month .... until today.
I can't tell you what made today so different, but for some reason, on my commute home today, I started thinking about all the time I've wasted questioning if I was enough, and I decided to do something different. I decided to be honest about my feeling of insufficiency, take off the Super Woman cape, and just be me. I mean, after all, that is what I started this blog for, right? I'll never be the super hero that I aspire to be - if I were, what else would there be to reach for? - but that doesn't mean that I throw in the towel and stop trying. I'll keep striving, keep making mistakes, keep falling short, BUT from this day forward, I'll KEEP GETTING UP AND TRYING AGAIN!
ENOUGH! That is the word of the day, except this time, and every time after this, it's not a question, it's a declaration.
ENOUGH questioning my worth as a woman!
ENOUGH doubting my abilities as a wife and mother!
ENOUGH diminishing who I am in order to make others feel comfortable!
ENOUGH with the excuses!
ENOUGH with the pity parties!
I AM ENOUGH!